la primera

this is my first blog. I'm not sure how much i even like that word, it sounds kind of gooey...? Anyways, im nearing a point in my life when i spend alot of time on the internet, so i thought i'd might as well track a few things blog wise.

Anyways, here i am...back in Texas, after so much has happened, how is it that I am back where i started. So much of my wants to be back in Italy, but also, so much of me just wants to be away from here. I beginning to have that same feeling that i developed when i was 18. The scared shitless thing..at the same time, incredibly fearless, and a strange mix of the two. In one week i will be in New York at a photo confrence. Jesus, is this really what i want to do? I think I'll lay off the heavy stuff and just reminisce about Italy mostly here, and about all things that make me happy at the moment. I'm incredibly frustrated in waco. I think the small meanderings of my imagination might suffice for the next year, and I'll awake to infinite possibilities. Or maybe, they are all right here in front of me.
I am beginning to feel very deeply and passionately as i once did, and It scares me, becuase it does not seem to fit in with the life that i am being hearded into.

How crazy of me would it be to return..indefinitely?